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Unfixable – Tessa Bailey

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He’s the last thing she wants…but the only thing she needs.

Willa Peet isn’t interested in love. She’s been there, done that, and has the shattered heart to prove it. Ready to shake the breakup,she heads to Dublin, Ireland. But there’s a problem. A dark-haired, blue-eyed problem with a bad attitude that rivals her own. And he’s not doling out friendly Irish welcomes.

Shane Claymore just wants to race. The death of his father forced him off the Formula One circuit, but he’s only staying in Dublin long enough to sell the Claymore Inn and get things in order for his mother and younger sister. He never expected the sarcastic American girl staying at the inn to make him question everything.

But even as Willa and Shane’s fiery natures draw them together, their pasts threaten to rip them apart. Can Shane give up racing to be with the woman he loves, or will Willa’s quest to resurrect the tough-talking, no-shit-taking girl she used to be destroy any hope of a future together?

5 out of 5 stars!

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My Review

Tessa Bailey has delved into the New Adult genre with Unfixable and it is just as freaking amazing and sexy and sexual and filled with angst as her Line of Duty series, just with less sex scenes and more sexual tension. GOD is there anything this woman cannot do? I would seriously kidnap Tessa if it meant I could get all the info on upcoming books and the sexy men writes about.

Unfixable is about Willa, Ginger’s sister from Protecting What’s His and she has grown up since the dark, Gothic teenager we saw her as in book one. She’s nineteen now, and has split up with Evan – whom we meet in book one too. She thinks she is broken, unfixable and is much better alone, so she pushes people away.

When she wins a photography contest and goes to Dublin for a month, little does she know that one Shane Claymore is going to turn her life upside down, whether she wants him to or not. He will make her feel things and see things and despite trying to push him away, he can see her, all of her and that frightens and blitz her alive at the same time.

But what happens when both their pasts catch up with each other?

I definitely remember Willa as the unsocial teenager from Protecting What’s His and then Evan came along and took no shit from her, made her see things but we find out that she couldn’t put on an appearance any more and lost herself along the way. Dublin is a chance to get over the heartbreak and find herself once again.

She’s always felt she had to put on appearances for Evan and over time its dragged her down, being someone she is not. She doesnt let her feelings show, only to those whom she loves but somewhere along the line shes lost herself and she knows that Evan deserves better than her so she lets him go and heads to Dublin which starts the beginning of the rest of her life.

I really like Willa. He goes to heal herself in Dublin, to take pictures, divulge in the culture and she goes with the intention to not make any friends. You can help but hold your breath along with Willa when she spots the gorgeous Shane waiting to pick her up. You can understand her anger, her frustration, her revolving feelings for this angry Irishman, who harbours so much pain and guilt on top of looking out for his mother and sister and running the pub she is living in for the next month.

I understood everything from Willa. It’s easy to think you are broken, unfixable, to not deserve true happiness because you think you cant give it anyone else, but shes wrong. She helped a ‘broken’ family and in doing so, they showed her love and friendship, something I think, she craved outside of Derek and Ginger – something she didnt know she was missing and in turn, she came out of her shell more. With the insults and sexual tension she and Shane gave off, you know deep down, that Shane can ‘fix her’, that he is just as ‘broken’ but together they can be fixed, together they can make each other so blissfully happy and you know that their hate-to-love relationship is the start of something beautiful – just like Ginger and Derek’s relationship.

AHHHH SHANE. I have no words at all. I cant function how much I adore this Irishman! He’s intense, frighteningly sexy and gorgeous. He’s famous on the Formula One circuit yet he’s harbouring guilt from his past – from his family which in turn makes him demanding and protective, not just with his sister Faith or his mother Kitty, but also with Willa.

He wants to stay away, yet there is this pull that he cant cut away from. He needs to be around her, to touch her and although their initials first meetings didn’t go well, he keeps on trying. Keeps on trying to see the real Willa, not the one who keeps pushing people away and changing subjects when things get too tough.

You watch him fall in love with Willa. You watch his emotion change, you watch the tension between them, know that Willa, unconsciously, is the girl who will change everything for Shane, and its a choice he had to make and once where the outcome will never change for him. You will see what I mean.

Shane is an angry soul. He harbours so much guilt from his past that he cant think of anything else, cant see past it but then beautiful Willa arrives and he;s in a tipple. Just for the few shorts weeks she has turned everything around in his life. She’s made friends with his sister, let her spread her wings from his protective nature, she’s helped with his mentally ill mother Kitty, getting her out of her shell and stepping outside the pub and she’s made him think of his future, of what he truly wants.

And I think we all know what, or who, he truly wants.

I loved the anger, the banter, the sexual tension between Willa and Shane and when it came down to having sex, their chemistry was steaming and you just knew, in that moment, it was just them. It was them and they were falling hard for each other. You knew that Willa found something just like Ginger and it scared her but when she finally admits it to herself, she knows she had to hunt down Shane and tell him. The ending made me cry, just the very last paragraph had me smiling so hard and clutching my chest.

I would love more of this couple, to see past that last page and see what else they have in store for them.

So Tessa, please can I have more Willa and Shane? Pretty please with a yummy man on top 😉

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BOOK TOUR: The Rocker That Loves Me (#4) – Terri Anne Browning

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Today on The Rocker That Loves Me blog tour is The Book Lovers review!

5 / 5 stars for Shane and Harper!!

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I was the fun loving, easy going, different girl—okay, different girls every night—Demon. One look into a pair of violet eyes and all of that changed. She doesn’t even realize how beautiful she is and that makes me want her even more. Realizing that she is just as damaged as I am breaks my heart. Harper is a part of me, my other half. If only she would open her incredible eyes and see how I feel…

The Beauty… I knew that I wasn’t Shane Stevenson’s type. Hot rockers don’t go for plain girls like me. Years of my mother telling me just how unbeautiful I am has assured me of that. I have nothing to offer a guy that is so used to hot girls drooling over him. So why is he always there when I turn around? And why does it feel like little needles piercing my heart at the mere thought of him with someone else?

For my reviews of the last three books in The Rocker series click HERE 🙂

5 / 5 Stars

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My Review

“Don’t you know by now that you are home, baby?”

I’m sure by now you know my love of The Rocker series by Terri Anne Browning. Rockers with tormented pasts whom find the love of their lives. Just my kind of books and I wait impatiently for the next book in the series every time another book comes out! I ALWAYS need my fix of Demon’s Wings.

The Rocker That Loves Me is the fourth book in the series and by no means any less important or sexy that the other three. HELL NO!!

I love the fact that Terri writes a prologue at the beginning on the books – a chance to see each band member (In their own book) as a teenager growing up so we get a little about what they all went through and how, of course, they all stuck together. They are not just a band, but a family, a very close family who will do absolutely anything for each other, as they know the ins and outs of each other’s pasts. They will fight, love and protect one another, especially Emmie.

In The Rocker That Needs Me we find out more about Shane. He’s Drakes brother and both of they have really gone through the same thing in the past, yet they deal with it different. Drake drinks himself into a stupor and Shane parties and sleeps around every night. But he sees the love that his bandmates have and he wants it. He tries to cut down the girls and in doing so takes up running. From The Rocker That Needs Me, he runs a lot.

The Rocker That Loves Me starts in New York, where Shane and Drake are. Shane met Harper in TRTNL and they strike up a friendship, but now Shane wants me. He’s hooked from the get-go and is convinced to get her into bed which is when I did get annoyed at Shane for the first few pages when he just wanted Harper to ‘play’ with. That really pissed me off but then he found out she was a virgin and he took her first kiss and he just couldn’t do it to her, he couldn’t be with her because of his ‘tainted past’ but Shane just couldn’t stay away.

She was all he wanted and he was determined to make her his. He fell for her pretty fast and he just didn’t understand why she didn’t think she was beautiful, so he made it his mission to make her see just how much she meant to him. He was protective and loving and caring and despite one little mishap from him, his intentions were always good and he definitely made up for them – god my heart broke at one scene over him and I just wanted to hug him and love him. I’m glad Harper forgave him.

Harper had this affect over him and it was lush to see Shane just want someone to love, like his band brothers, he really did deserve it. They have both never really experienced love and it was so nice to see them both fall into each other and the epilogue, ohh I cried it was that sweet.

I loved Harper. We first meet her in The Rocker That Needs Me and she is Lana’s friend and roommate. She’s reserved but she can bite hard if you fuck around with her; she’s a photographer and just a smidge insecure…okay a lot, but that is due to her mother and step sister belittling her when she was growing up. She believes she’s not pretty, sexy or beautiful enough for any guys to like her and she thinks it’s a joke when she gets called beautiful. She doesn’t believe it.  Then Shane comes along and he calls her ‘beautiful’ at every chance, but she just thinks he lying and doesn’t believe him.  She’s never been kissed, she’s a virgin and the complete opposite to Shane. She wants the love that Ellie and Carl had in Up (I loved the reference).

There is something about Shane but she’s adamant to be friends with him but it’s becoming too hard. IT was actually great to watch Harper grow. Grow into herself and grow in confidence too. Confidence that obviously came from Shane, which in turn made her stand up to her mother. And the confidence to explore her sexuality. Damn girl! I felt so proud of her throughout her journey and how she FINALLY believed in herself and believed that Shane loved her so much and would never leave her – after all, their love was an Ellie and Carl kind.

Harper and Shane had amazing chemistry. That was clear to see in The Rocker That Needs Me and by god, it was extraaaaa in The Rocker That Loves Me. They say opposite attract and with this couple, it truly does. They both had a journey to take, they both helped one another out and they grew stronger together and it was clear to see how much they cared and how much they loved one another. Everything they did – whether it was a bad decision (despite the fact they thought they were doing it for the greater good) or a good one – they got through it. The sex only intensified the chemistry and Harper helped Shane with his sex fear and Shane opened Harper up sexually. I just love these two!!

As with the other books, we get to a chapter from Emmie and I LOVE that girl. She’s got spunk that one!! We also see bits of the band and their respective girls and of course, Lana and Harpers flatmates. I also love how the stories from the past books integrate and overlap so it’s a continuation of their stories.

Seriously read this series, I cannot recommend it enough. From book one I have been religiously loving these rockers through everything. Take a chance on these books because you will most definitely fall in love with each and every one of the band members and the girls as well as loving Terri Anne too!

Bring on The Rocker That Holds Her and The Rocker’ Babies (And then we get Axton’s story WATWATTTTT!)

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Hated school and reading until her aunt handed over her first romance novel at the age of twelve, as crazy aunts tend to do. It gave her a passion for the written word that has only increased over the years.  At sixteen she started writing her own novellas, forcing her sister to be her one woman fan club. Now she has a few more fans and a lot more passion for writing. Reese: A Safe Haven Novella was her first Indie published book. The Rocker That Holds Me changed the tables and kicked off The Rocker… series featuring the sinfully delicious members of Demon’s Wings. Terri Anne lives just outside of Birmingham, AL with her husband and three children.

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Top 3 posts

Every Sunday I will be highlighting the top three posts that you have all viewed during the past week.

1) Waiting on Wednesday: The Rocker That Loves Me – Terri Anne Browning

You can check out my post HERE

2) Ten reasons to LOVE ‘The Art Of Letting Go’ – Anna Bloom (+ Excerpt)

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3) Mancandy Monday – Woods Kerrington

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BOOK TOUR: The Rocker That Savors Me – Terri Anne Browning (+ AUTHOR INTERVIEW)

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Today is the The Book Lovers stop for The Rocker That Savors me. It includes a review and an Author Interview 🙂

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Layla…
…has had a hard life. On her own at a young age, always having to do what needed to be done just to survive. Now she has two other people depending on her and she needs a job fast before they get evicted. A job interview introduces her to Jesse Thornton, the delicious drummer for Demon’s Wings. He reminds her of all the mistakes of her past, but is also her hope for the future.

Jesse…
…has never let anyone in. The only real family he has ever had are his band brothers and Emmie—the only women he has ever loved. But then Layla comes into his life and he would do just about anything to get one taste. Can he move past his own insecurities and allow this woman into his heart?

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My Review of The Rocker That Holds Me

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My Review

Jesse has only loved one girl in his life – Emmie. But he knows her heart has always belonged to his band mate and ‘brother’ Nik. The band and Emmie are his everything. They are the only real family he has and the only people he has let him, even if he is hiding some secrets from them – like the nightmares. But then Layla comes along and he will do anything to have her. Can Jesse move past his insecurities and allow himself to love and open his heart up to Layla?

Layla has had a tough life. From being on her own since the age of 16, she has had to do whatever she could to survive. Now she has two other people who depend on her and she needs a better job before they get evicted. When a job interview with Emmie introduces her to Demon Wing’s drummer Jesse Thornton, he reminds her of all the past mistake and the reason why she doesn’t date rockers. But there is something about him that she can’t stay away from. Can she move from her past and focus on her future with Jesse?

Ever since I read The Rocker That Holds Me I was really hoping that Terri Anna Browning would write books for the other members of the band. There were a lot of questions about each character that I wanted to know about. Wanted to know about their past and how it shaped them into who they are today. When she confirmed that there would be books for the others, I was holding my breath for them.

If you read my review of TRTHM, you will see that I loved Jesse. He is an amazing guy and an absolute godsend to Emmie for all of her life. He would and will do whatever he can to make sure she is safe and happy and I was so happy that his book was second.

As I’ve said before, you become drawn in to the characters lives. You feel for them, you want to know them in real life and you want to have a family circuit like the band and Emmie do. You can see the love they have for each other and how close they are. They have all grown up in similar households and they have been through thick and thin together. Terri Anne Browning brings all these emotions out of you when you read this book. I was grinning, crying, laughing, swooning and of course, the kindle throw when I became frustrated at Layla and Jesse (due to their stubbornness of not listening.)

Ms. Browning’s writing will have you hooked though. She definitely knows how to write sexy ass rockers. Sexy ass rockers who have a past and who, when they find the right girl, fall in love and in time learn to let go of the past. She writes with such emotion and depth that you can’t help but feel for these characters. It’s like they are real to me and you feel some kind of connection to them through the book. They really do take your heart.

Mentioned above, I love the bald, tattooed drummer that is Jesse. Growing up with a drunk of a father who used to beat him until Jesse was old enough to fight back, protecting Emmie along with his band mates was the only thing that mattered. Making sure she was safe, especially when the band became famous. Nothing mattered more than Emmie.

Jesse really is a brilliant character. He loves unconditionally, hes strong yet he’s gentle, hes confident and cocky but he never really uses his famous status, more content on being grounded and just basking in the love that all this band mates and Emmie share together.

As everyone in the band, he has a past. He’s never really had anyone who he has felt ‘more’ with apart from Emmie, but he’s just her best friend, so when he hears and meets Layla for the first time, its like a shock to the system. He can’t get this girl out of his head. He just needs her, needs to be with her and have her. It was so nice to see Jesse this way; to find someone who he wants to be with, to pursue romantically because he and Layla had this sizzling chemistry right from the start. As much as she told herself to stay away, she couldn’t, and Jesse was adamant on having her. Their pull just overtook them both and they just had to be together.

I loved how he (and the group) took Layla’s sisters under their wings, treating them with care and love. It was perfect to see this band, who love music and don’t care for the famous status to embrace three new characters into their dynamic and love them unconditionally too.

Jesse really would do anything to make Layla happy – even when they had a tipping point during parts of the book – but in the end, Jesse loved Layla with everything. You will find out just how much throughout the book ;).

Layla is an awesome character. I really, really loved reading her story and getting to know her throughout the book because she had such a strength you get drawn to. She has had one hell of a tough ride, from being kicked out at 16 and dropping out of school to doing whatever she could to survive the next few years, she had to grow up fast. Now she has custody of her two sisters, Lana – 17 and Lucy – 6, whom she loves more than anything, she wants them to achieve everything she never did. Layla loves fiercely, is protective, honest and a great friend to Emmie but she also had a vulnerable side to her at times. Mostly because of her past and the way she dislikes Rockstars because of her mother and her father. Although she didn’t want to fall in love with a rockstar, watching her with Jesse was so nice to see and it was great to see her so happy. To see her fall in love with Jesse and become close to the other band mates, as well as becoming best friends with Emmie.

There are a few scenes where you just want to shake Layla and tell her to listen to Lana and Emmie, listen to watch they are telling her and for her to stop being so stubborn. But you can kind of understand why she reacted that way (You’ll know what I’m on about when you read that scene). I’m just so glad that she and Jesse got their happily ever after. They both truly deserve it.

I particularly loved that Emmie and Nik (and Drake but we’ll get to him) had such a big role in this book as well. We see a very pregnant, stressed out Emmie but when she hires Layla, you see Emmie gladly welcome Layla and her sisters into their life. I loved having Emmie and Nik being a side part to The Rocker That Savors Me. You see how much they love one another, how they will always be there in an instance when one is hurting or upset (More Emmie on this), how they just can’t live without one another. I still love seeing the two of them like this after everything they had been through in The Rocker That Holds Me.

I adored how easy the three girls blended into the group dynamic. The guys all love Lucy because they remind them of Emmie at her age, but a much happier version than the little girl they had to save and keep protected and they all welcome Lana because she has this calming effect on Drake.

Now onto Drake. We all know that he drinks himself into a stupor to escape the demons of his past – which we do not know yet – but when Lana is introduced to him, it’s like something has clicked inside of him and he doesn’t need to pick up a bottle and get steaming. He’s adopted Lucy and treats her like his little sister, building sandcastles with her, taking her shopping. Just spoiling her rotten.

Then we come onto his ‘relationship’ with Lana. It’s like she is his muse. His muse to stop drinking, to start living life; to smile and laugh and show his artistic side, the one side that he has never, ever shared. Despite Lana being 17 and Drake 31, they have this special connection, and although Drake is petrified of the age gap, he just can’t be without Lana. There are sides to see to Drake that will tear you up, make your heart clench for him and that is why I cannot wait for book three. I NEED BOOK THREE NOW TERRI! I need more Drake in my life!

I can’t tell you how much that epilogue just….*sigh* I loved it so much. It was perfect and just holy moly, the most amazing way to end The Rocker That Savors Me. I am so not going into detail but Layla, Lucy and Jesse are just waaay too cute together and I’m smiling just thinking about what happens but I’m going to be good and not spoil it for you. You have to read it yourself to see why I am smiling to a computer screen like an idiot whilst typing this out. I can’t stop giggling and smiling at the amazingness of the epilogue. Too. Darn. Sweet.

If you loved The Rocker That Holds Me, then PLEASE grab your copy of The Rocker That Savors Me. You get more Emmie and Nik sweetness, you get to see Jesse fall in love, you get to see three beautiful ladies be added to the band’s family and you see character development, character’s grow and journey, characters fall in love and it ends perfectly for the next book  in the series which is Drakes – The Rocker That Needs Me and by god, I need this book in my life right now, because, although all the characters stole my heart, Drake took a little bit extra in this book.

So yes, love sexy rockstars who have sexy times but also journey through their pasts to find love and acceptance? Then this series is definitely for you!

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Interview with Terri Anne Browning:-

When did you realize that you wanted to be a writer?
I was sixteen. It was summer vacation and I was so bored. I couldn’t find a book that would hold my attention for longer than 15 minutes. So my mom told me to write my own. She was sure that I could do a much better job. I pulled out one of my notebooks and got to work. Of course I got thirty pages into it and another idea for another story plot popped into my head. The first story didn’t get finished and neither did the second, but I had so much fun. I’ve been hooked ever since.
 
How did The Rocker That Holds Me come about?
I had been thinking about a character like Emmie for a while, but I couldn’t really get her personality down. I couldn’t decide what kind of hero would suit her, and then I realized that she needed more than one hero to make her complete. That was how Jesse, Drake and Shane were added in. Putting a rock theme into it was just the icing on the cake. The whole tattooed, bad boy persona for the guys really clicked for me as I brought them to life.

After you wrote The Rocker That Holds Me, did you ever plan to create a series or was it after fans of the book demanded more?
Even as I was writing The Rocker That Holds Me I was thinking ahead to Jesse’s book, but when the fans started screaming for a sequel I was ready to deliver.
 
The Rocker books all share (or are going to) the back stories of all the band mates and Emmie. Was it difficult to come up with different stories for them or did you know exactly what they were?
Jesse’s was the easiest to do because he is just so loveable. Everyone wants a Jesse in their life, either as a lover or a best-friend. Drake’s was easy to create because Jesse’s set the ground work, but he was just so gut-wrenching to write. But it’s Shane that is proving to be the most difficult of the band to write. I don’t know where he is going to take me and that can be terrifying.

In The Rocker That Savors Me, you introduce three more characters into the band and Emmie’s lives. What was your decision in doing this and not just introducing one?
Layla came as a package deal even as I was creating her in my notes. She just didn’t feel complete until I added in Lana and Lucy. She needs them just as much as they need her and that makes Jesse fall faster for her.

Drake held a big part in The Rocker That Savors Me, and he has become a favourite of mine now. Was this as to introduce him more as his book is next in the series?
Yes, although at the beginning it wasn’t where I was going. Drake had other ideas though and I went were he took me.

This may be a spoiler for those who haven’t read The Rocker That Savors Me, but what made you decide that Lana would be the one for Drake?
In the beginning even I wasn’t sure if that was going to work. The age thing was a big issue and for some that can really be the deal breaker. But there was just so much chemistry there and Drake couldn’t stay away. When you are that far into the dark you reach for the light whenever it is presented to you.

Do you have a favourite character? And who do you love to write the most?
I hate to pick favourites here, it’s like picking a favourite child…Jesse is my favourite though! He’s just so big and scary, but such a softy and so loveable. Jesse was created with my husband’s personality so I really do have a closer connection to him than the others. I love writing from Emmie’s POV, probably why I have included—and plan to include at least one POV from her in every book. She is such a strong and sassy character and I put a little of myself into her.

Do you have any other projects in the work for when you finish the series?
Well…If things work out the way I want them to, I’m hoping to continue on with the series through Axton Cage. I’m hoping that his book, which will be out next year sometime, will pave the way for more The Rocker… books with his band OtherWorld. But before that I’m really thinking about a follow up book that includes all four guys of Demon’s Wings.
 
Have you ever thought about who you would like to play each character if you’re books were made into films?
There are a few people that I have thought about. Mostly it has been Emmie’s character that I would love to see come to life. Emma Stone really comes to mind. I just love her attitude! But if I were to ever have the chance to do a movie, or a TV series which would really be awesome, I would want actors that are just starting out. 

And lastly, is there a deep, dark secret you would like to reveal? 😉
Lol! Well, I don’t have many secrets. I don’t have a secret sex life, and I’m not hiding any bodies in my basement. I will reveal that I work under a pen name, but I almost always answer to it. I like the anonymity that comes with using the pen name. I don’t think half of my extended family even realize that I’m an author!

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The Rocker That Holds Me – Terri Anne Browning

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Touring with four rockers is the thing of dreams…

At least that is what people tell me. To me those four rockers are my family. They have watched over me from the time I was five years old. Protecting me from my mother and her drunken, drug addict rages. When they made it big they still watched over me. And when my monster of a mother died they took over as my guardians.

In the six years since that happened I have watched over the four men that
mean everything to me. I take care of them just as they once took care of me. I handle all the dirty work behind the scenes of a rockers life. It isn’t always pretty. At times it came be damn near disgusting, especially when I have to get rid of their one night stands. Ugh!

Taking care of them doesn’t bother me though. I mean it’s not like I’m in love with one of them. That would be crazy. Falling for a rocker is NOT smart.

Okay, so I’m not smart. I love my guys, and one of them kind of holds my heart in his big old rocker hand. But I’m dealing. I’ve been able to keep it my little secret for years now.
I’m not, however, dealing with this bug that I seem to have caught. It scares the hell out of me. I hate doctors, but I’m suddenly more worried about finding out what is wrong with me than what the doctor might do to me.

When I get my test results back my life will never be the same again…

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My Review

“Yes, I am in love. There is this Ember in my heart that has hold of me and won’t let go.”

Ember didn’t have the best childhood. Living on a trailer park, her mother was a drunk, a druggy and would beat up Emmie when she was in a rage – which was most of the time. But at 7, Emmie had the four best friends she could have that looked after her when her mother beat her. Albeit, the guys were 10 years older, but they were always there for her, protecting her and cleaning her up.

They knew if the police got involved then their Emmie would be taken away from them and they didn’t want that. They were the ones that needed to keep her safe and protect her, not the social services.

At 15, Emmie’s mum died and since the guys were now in a famous band, they took Emmie in, telling social services that she was theirs and that was that. She has been touring and living with them for the past six years, taking care of them, like they did for her when she was younger and handling their dirty work aka getting rid of their one night stands!

As much as she loves them, there’s one rocker who holds her heart the most, but she knows he doesn’t feel the same as her, so she just needs to deal with it, but when she starts feeling ill and ends up at the hospital, all is not what it seems and when the results are back, she is in for a huge shock.

Although The Rocker That Holds Me is only 99 pages long, there is depth in the story, the characters are developed – albeit you don’t really find out about their home life on the trailer park apart from Emmie’s so I am hoping there are more books – and the little family they create is utterly perfect. I loved reading about how much they mean to each other, after all those terrible years during their childhood. From the beginning, you may think this book is filled with heavy issues but you would be wrong and as the story went on it was lighter although there are angsty bits along the way.

I spotted this book on Amazon last night, and because it contained Rockstars – my favourite – I knew I had to grab a copy and read it straight away. I was not disappointed at all and the story develops despite only being 99 pages long. You feel like you know these characters and they take a bit of your heart along with Emmie’s.

Emmie, as I’ve said, hasn’t had the best childhood. Subjected to abuse, the guys were her saviour; her guardian angels. So when her mum dies and she goes to ‘live’ with them, so knows she owes them everything for what they have done for her all these years. Emmie seems to have become stronger in herself, although she still has nightmares sometimes; she knows that the guys are only a few feet away if she needs them. She can hold her own against them but she still gets scared that they are going to disown her when they find out the news of what is wrong with her. But she should know by now that no matter what is wrong, these guys love her and would never let her go.

I ADORED the band! You first meet them when they are 17(?)(I had to work out their ages, still not sure if it’s right) and are tending to Emmie’s cuts. From the beginning you can see how much Emmie means to them all; they need to protect her. When they become famous, they don’t forget Emmie and they send her money, buy her things and give her a phone so when she needs them, she only has to call, so when her mother dies, they automatically leave to come back home to her – shes more important to them than the band and they will do anything for her. They truly love her and that’s why they took her with them instead of letting the social services take her. Shes part of their family and they have all been through so much together. She is theirs, and they are hers.

I freaking loved Jesse and Nik. More so Jesse because he was always there for Emmie, through the tears, through the ‘illness’ and he would do whatever it took to make her happy and smile again. It was really sweet to see how much her crying affected him and he hated it, it tore him up inside. For such a metal band, they aren’t afraid to show their emotions. He really was a big brother to her.

Now Nik. Holy moly, he sounded so hot! I can see why Emmie fell for him. Much the same as Jesse, he was there for her and you could really see how much he cared for her, a little bit more than ‘sister love’. All the little things he was saying/doing, I couldn’t understand how Emmie wasn’t picking up his feelings, but then I suppose when you’ve loved someone so long, and you think they only think of you as a ‘little sister’ then seeing beyond that wouldn’t cross your mind.

I did feel that all this will-they-wont-they could have easily been sorted out with either of them telling the other how they feel. They kind of kept mucking each other up, especially Nik, trying to make Emmie jealous to see if she really did have feelings for him?! BOY why would you do that to a girl? It isn’t fair at all to do that when it’s obvious she loves you. But when he finally spilled his guts, oh man, I fell even more for you, you sweetheart. Ugh you know just the right things to say and I love you for that.

The epilogue was a great ending to the book. It summed up the love that Nik and Emmie had together, along with a little surprise. I would love to know more about their relationship, so when Jesse’s book is out, I do hope they get some part in it!

I CANNOT wait for Jesse’s book next! I’d love to find out more about this brilliant drummer and his past story too. I’d also like to know more about Drake and Shane, especially Drake, who seemed to like his alcohol a bit too much, which was his way to forget his childhood demons. I want to know about their childhood – as they are brothers – and if they both went through the same things and are using different coping mechanisms to forget the past or if something just happened to Drake? Hmmm. I hope they do get their books; I’d love to know their story!

So if you like Rockstars, romance, sex, friendships and twists and turns, then The Rockstar That Holds Me is definitely the book for you. It’s a short read but it holds so much in the plot. I’d definitely recommend it to all of you, because I absolutely loved it!

Posted in Suspense

Graveyard Games – Sheri Leigh

Synopsis

Dusty has always been the hothead in the pair — her twin, Nick, he was the calm, cool and collected one. But now Nick is dead, found murdered in their local cemetery, and Dusty, on forced leave from her job as a Chicago police officer, goes back to her childhood home to attend the funeral.

It becomes quickly apparent to Dusty that the local authorities aren’t being straight with her, or anyone else, about what’s been going on in the little Midwestern town she grew up in. The detective in her kicks in and she decides to find out what–or who–has killed her brother, so she moves in temporarily with her father and stepmother, takes a job in a local bar, and starts asking questions.

Her focus soon fixes on Shane, her brother’s best friend–the town bad boy and bad seed. The tension between the two of them has always been palpable, and nothing has changed. Sparks fly as they collide, and while Dusty finds herself sinking in deeper with Shane, the mystery of what happened to her brother–and an ever growing list of victims–grows even stranger.

Dusty finds her past haunting her everywhere she goes as she continues to dig deeper into the circumstances of her brother’s death, and her future looms large as her fate as a police officer is about to be determined back in Chicago. With everything coming to a head, she focuses on one thing: What happened the night her brother was killed in the cemetery? She’s sure Shane knows… something… and she’s determined to find out what it is, one way or another.

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My Review

This book was free on Amazon, and as I’ve said before, I love reading the free books because many of them turn out to be such a good read and this was…at the 80% mark.

Graveyard Games starts off pretty fast, with Dusty, attending her twin brother Nick’s funeral, rewinding on some parts of a conversation between the two of them the night before he died, as he had moved back to their hometown after being ‘fired’ from his job.

Dusty has been suspended from her job in Chicago and so when she comes back to her childhood town, she’s determined to find out who or what has killed her brother, not believing the story that the local police and the local newspaper are running about an animal being the main suspect in the vicious deaths of not only Nick, but other people as well, people she was close to when she was younger.

After the funeral, it does start to become a little slow, not much happens apart from Dusty getting a job in the local bar, befriending a guy called Sam, who, as the book states ‘is a little slow’, has a plan to ‘get with’ her brother’s best friend Shane, whom she allegedly hates so she can get the truth about Nick’s death from him – as she doesn’t believe he doesn’t know what happened, as Nick told her the night before he died he was going out with Shane and their friends.

To be honest, it only really got exciting from about 80% onwards as Shane tells Dusty what killed Nick and they get a gang of them together to go hunt this ‘creature’ down in the cemetery and that’s when all the action happened and I was sitting up straight, gasping over what was happening and hoping that none of them died. I actually had an inkling over who the creature was, and although it wasn’t the person I thought it was, they were still related to that person.

This book – albeit – sounds like a thriller, it’s not a thriller at all. I don’t really read horror books, as I get scared easily when the author describes the deaths in details, what the body looks etc, but in this book, sure, Nick is described in Dusty’s dream, but I could handle the little amount of description of his messed-up body.

I actually had no idea how old the characters were, because they still acted like teenagers, drinking in the woods, making bonfires, and some of the characters are married with kids, so forgive me if I was a little confused over why they were acting immature nearly every night. Searching for their ages, I think they were in their mid twenties? Anyway, as I said, they were acting like they were still in school.

I did love the scenes between Shane and Dusty as Dusty was convinced she hated him from a young age although she had loved him and he her, since they were younger but Nick had stopped Shane from inviting her anywhere with them because Nick had a big secret that you find out when Shane tells Dusty how he died. Although she was only planning to be with Shane to get information, they both slipped back into being in love with each other and when everything happened in the Graveyard at the end, I was on knifes edge wondering who was going to die and who was going to live.

Anyway, if you want a thriller/horror, this probably isn’t the book for you, but as it was free, I can’t complain about it because it ‘eased’ me into wanting to read more books like this, albeit, not the gory kind but we’ll see if I get to that stage eventually.