Posted in J. Sterling

The Game Changer (#2) – J. Sterling

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Jack appeared at my door last night after six months of no communication wearing a Mets jersey and holding a dozen red roses. He told me he was sorry, that he loved me, and that he would earn my trust again. It took everything in me to not fall apart at the mere sight of him. I wanted to take him back into my life, but I needed to know that this time it would be forever…

In J. Sterling’s highly anticipated follow-up to her USA Today bestselling novel The Perfect Game, Jack and Cassie quickly realize that their new lifestyle can often be cruel and unforgiving. Their happiness is put to the test as the past is never truly far behind.

How do you stay together when the world’s trying to tear you apart?

4 out of 5 stars

My Review of The Perfect Game

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My Review

When you figure out love is all that matters after all, it sure makes everything else, seem so small.” So Small – Carrie Underwood

We all know what went down in The Perfect Game, the heartache we endured, the shouting at our Kindle at Jack Fucking Carter and then he (kind of) mended it at the end, proving just how much he loves Cassie, how he needs to to forgive him and how he can’t imagine his life without her in it.

The Game Changer has new challenges, about dealing with the pressure of being in the public eye, especially for Cassie. It’s about whether she can deal with everything that comes with it, whether its enough to just be with Jack….it makes her evaluate her life and you know you will be hooked, needing to know this story, needing more of these two in your life and before you know it, you’re at the end, grinning like a buffoon.

Books about fame and dealing with the pressure of being in the limelight are ones that I enjoy…although they do give me a hernia! And The Game Changer was no different. The pressure is on Cassie and Jack right from the start. The pressure about their life together, the made-up stories, the lies, photographs that don’t paint the full picture, the bitchiness online, everything boils down to the pressure of the media world and although they don’t want it to affect their relationship, its bloody hard for it not to.

I felt for Cassie so badly. She took the brunt of everything really – harsh words from the fans, the baseball wives being bitches, the ‘fans’ online spouting shit and of course, the magazines posting lies. It’s enough to make anyone feel even more insecure about themselves, about their relationship, about even stepping foot outside. More so its uncomfortable knowing that you have eyes watching you everywhere. Cassie couldn’t even pop out to get some food without people posting where she was. Her job was so important to her and in a way, held the only normality she had in this new world of fame. It kept her grounded, it kept her busy and you can see just how much photography means to her. It’s her life, and like Jack’s she wouldn’t know what to do without it.

I admired Cassie throughout this book. Despite all the set backs, the harsh words and of course, the one MAJOR shitfest that went down, she was as strong as she could be. Dealing with the shit thrown at her, of course she faltered but she stood her ground, trying not to let anyone see her vulnerable side, especially Jack but he knows exactly when something is wrong with her. I hated seeing her crack, her down but you know what, she turns it around. It’s like something switches in her and she knows that no one will ever match up to Jack, she doesnt want them too and she learns to deal with all the bullshit, if only to have Jack in the end….and that’s what she got.

I enjoy watching Jack redeem himself throughout this book. He actually puts his heart and soul into gaining Cassie’s trust, to being a better man for her, to proving to her every day she is the one, the one who stole his heart and the one person he wants forever. And now he has her again, he’s never letting her go.

I loved hearing the stories about the six months without Cassie, how he was battling the bitch, how he wanted to fight for Cassie when all that drama was over and not drag her into it anymore. He wanted a fresh slate to be with her, to win her back and not having the baggage, I actually commend him for that. Despite feeling like shit and loving the crap out of Cassie, if I was her and he turned up still with the baggage, I’d tell him to get rid of it then come back.

He’s where he wants to be now, with Cassie, and you damn well know that he will try to protect her from everything, starting with the fans at the games. You can see how much he’s stressing and afraid of everything Cassie is going through, but you know that he cant focus on worrying as it will effect his game. As long as shes safe and comes to him after every game, he is okay.

Of course, Cassie and Jack have their struggles, as every couple do but they also find their way back to each other, their love overpowering and it makes them stronger. Yes the fame is the major change in their relationship, but once they actually talk everything out, you know that love is all that matters. Its the one constant that will prevail and that is definitely what you can see between these two. To go through everything and still feel so strongly, you know they will go the whole way.

The Perfect Game and The Game Changer certainly make you go through the motions but I love watching Cassie and Jack’s relationship, like knowing that despite the major shit that Jack did, that he still has Cassie’s love and her heart and that together, they can go through anything that is thrown their way, and they bleeding well have!!

Now its to read the last book of their journey – The Sweetest Game!

Posted in New Adult

What’s Left of Me – Amanda Maxlyn

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Life works in mysterious ways.

Four years ago I became known as the girl with cancer.

I refuse to cry.

And I refuse to give in.

A relationship with a man is the last thing I’m looking for right now, but one night with Parker changes everything. He is persistent, and he knows what he wants. Me.

He doesn’t treat me like I’m fragile.

But he doesn’t know, and I’m not ready to tell him.

What if it changes everything?

Tragedy found me when I was seventeen.

Love found me when I was twenty-one.

My name is Aundrea McCall, and this is my journey.

5 out of 5 stars

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There will always be that one book where you read the synopsis and think ‘damn this book is going to break me in two’ and I knew I had to read it. Downloaded and read on Christmas Day, it took me roughly three hours to read it all and I was a shaking wreck by the end of it. Sobs were actually erupting from me and I was loud – got to say I was surprised I didn’t wake up the parents with my crying, sniffing and gasping.

What’s Left Of Me tugged at my heart from the very first page. I was invested in all the characters, especially Aundrea – or Dre as they call her. Her survival made me question my own life, made me question what I would do if I had to go through cancer three damn times. Would I just break down and say ‘I cant do this anymore’ or power my way through and be determined to fight once more? It’s hard to put yourself in that situation but you can damn near try to!

Reading books about cancer always tears a new one in me. I’ve lost two important people to cancer and the pain never goes away. You really connect with each character who is close to Dre. From her parents, her big sister Genna and her husband Jason, to her best friend Jean and her ‘friend’ Parker. Although Parker has no idea that Dre has cancer, they all have their own ways of dealing with the prognosis and their own way of acting around Dre.

You should already know the gist of what this amazing book is from the synopsis. What’s Left Of Me is about Aundrea. She’s been fighting cancer since the age of 17 and now at 21 its back for a third time. With her Doctor wanting to try a new trial or error drug, Aundrea moves in with her sister and husband where the trial drug is. This is where she meets Parker. He’s Jason’s new partner at the Veterinary surgery and he is drawn to Dre from first meet.

Dre likes him too but she is scared to get too close. She hasn’t told him about the cancer, wanting him to see her for her, not as the girl with cancer. She’s scared of everything – from getting married, to having children to even seeing her future. What if she gets better only to leave everyone she loves behind? She tries to tell herself she and Parker are just friends but its only a matter of time before they fall in love….but what happens when Parker finds out about the cancer? Will he leave her like she knew he would or stick with her throughout everything?

You can see that they all love her to death, they want her comfortable, want her to get better but at certain points you know they are mollycoddling Dre, whether its fear or worry, everyone acts different around her…apart from her best friend Jean. Jean, to me, acted the way I would want people to – normally, just like she used to before the dreaded diagnosis. Jean treats her like there is no cancer, she forces Dre to take control of her life, to explore it, be free and not let the cancer hold her back. You really need someone like Jean in your life when all you can think of is the cancer. You need someone to just set you free for a while, make you feel ‘normal’ and Jean certainly was that person.

Genna and Jason are always there for Dre. Rescheduling their work commits to be there for her when shes so sick from the chemo that she cant move, she’s in so much pain, being sick….you can see just how much Dre means to them and seeing her so ill cuts them apart. You know, if you have sibling, how much you hate it when they are really ill, so for Genna to act strong, despite worrying so much over Dre, you can sympathise with her over that. You can understand why Genna at times, was pissing Dre off over her fussing and questions but you can see that is just sisterly love, you hate to see your sibling in pain and will do whatever you can to make them feel better – to take the pain away yourself. Dre and Genna’s relationship is strong and you can totally see how close they are, how much they love one another and one scene in particular felt like I was being stabbed. It was definitely emotionally charged between them, but I think Genna needed to hear everything Dre had to say.

For someone who has battled cancer for 4 years, 3 times over, Dre is an inspiration. She is strong, in every way despite how afraid she is of her future. You know that dealing with being the ‘girl with cancer’ changes the way people look and act around you, just look at her parents and sister, so I understood why Dre didn’t want to tell Parker about the cancer even if I didn’t really agree. But to leave him in the dark meant he saw her for her. This carefree, strong, funny young woman who wasn’t battling for her life.

He didn’t treat her as someone with cancer, he treated her like ‘normal’ and that is all she wanted. I understood she needed someone to see her as Dre, not the girl with cancer. Although she wasn’t looking for a relationship, wasn’t looking to fall in love, you can see the deliberation she was going through…They both had feeling for each other yet Dre kept him an arms length away. She did this out of fear that he would leave her when he found out. I truly did understand why she wanted to be herself, at least for a while before letting Parker know she had cancer. It changes everything.

The hospital scenes with Dre had me in knots. From seeing her happy and laughing to then seeing her hooked up on the machine to seeing her madly sick the way that followed had me gasping to swallow and my stomach was in a constant state of dread. I was willing Dre to feel better, to be the one to comfort her, to watch over her at night, to ease the pain away. You really do connect with Aundrea, wanting to help her through the pain, take it away. You cry along with her, feel happy with her and you do go through all her emotions with her.

I adored Parker. He’s a cheeky flirty chap and you can see just how important Dre is to him. He may not understand her reasoning to just be friends, alas he is in the dark, but he doesnt give up on her either. If friends is what Dre wants, then fine, but he will try to make her change her mind every day. He takes her out on dates, makes her happy, the two of them together banter so much its so funny to witness but you feel that connection between them, both emotionally and physically. Parker makes Dre feel free, feel normal. He shows her how sexy and amazing she is and you know he’s fallen for her fast. Friendship is out the question now, he wants her to be his. When he does find out, I was crying along with Dre, my heart constricting over his reaction, but dear god Parker, you have some strength in you, you were there for her, holding her, letting her tell you everything in her own time.

“You own me, Aundrea. I couldn’t walk away from you if I tried. The second I laid eyes on you that night, in the mirror, I knew it.” He takes my hands in his, squeezing gently. “I would be a damn fool to let you slip away from me. I am so unbelievably in love with you.”

He is there every step of the way through her last chemo’s. You can see just how much he loves her. He is afraid himself of now losing the one person who owns him, but he will do whatever he can to prove that she is still Dre. To help her overcome her fear of going out without her wig. He still sees her as the woman he loves, as Dre, not Dre, the girl with cancer and I commend him so much on this. She didn’t want him to know because of that very thing, and they both fight the fear together. He does something to extraordinary that I stopped and had to reread what he had done. The smile and giggle on my face, with tears streaming down makes him such a breath of fresh air in my eyes. To do that just for Dre, to prove that she can be herself, not let the cancer take her over and show everyone outside she isn’t bothered about their looks, he does it in a heartbeat.

Their love for each other is stronger than ever. So Dre has cancer, that doesnt change Parker’s feelings for her at all and Dre loves him for that. He treats her like he always did and it helps the fact he is charming, sweet and oh so sexy in and out the bedroom!

That epilogue. THAT EPILOGUE DAMN NEAR RIPPED MY HEART OUT AND SHREDDED IT INTO TINY PIECES! No word of a lie, I sobbed hard, so hard I thought I was going to lose my breath at some point. Then after the book finished, I sat crying my eyes out until the pain slowly eased away. At points I was shaking, my hands were shaking and tears blurred my vision but I had to get to the end, I had to see what the fricking hell was happening.

For a debut, I applaud Amanda with everything! This book, despite being emotional and all the feels is truly about surviving, about falling in love and wanting to be free. Free to love, to have a future and to be free of cancer. You watch Dre’s journey throughout the book, watch her fall in love, watch her go through procedures and watch how love makes her stronger. At times you will fall with her but you know that she will have Parker or Genna and her parents to pick her back up again. Amanda doesnt hold back, she makes you believe you are in the book, holding Dre’s hand, being her friend and going through everything Dre is. It’s real.

Seriously, give this book a read. I have one massive book hangover

Posted in L.M Augustine, New Adult

Two Roads – L.M Augustine

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The only person poetry-loving Cali Monroe hates more than herself is Logan Waters, the geeky kid who lives in the dorm building next to hers.

Ever since Cali’s parents told her she would amount to nothing, she has felt entirely inadequate. Friendless and alone, she takes on the mean girl role in hopes it will make her feel better–and Logan serves as the perfect target. He infuriates her with his obnoxiously long lashes, his all too perfect dimpled smile, and his complete lack of personality outside of his intelligence. It doesn’t hurt that he’s part of the reason her brother is dead, either. So Cali hates him, and he returns the favor. Thus, their prank-filled, insult-driven rivalry is born, and torturing Logan quickly becomes the highlight of her life.

But when Cali’s parents set them up on a blind date, she begins to realize Logan might not be as boring as she always thought. He shares her love of poetry, takes a sadistic pleasure in making fun of crepes, and he makes her blush when he calls her smile pretty.

And hey, maybe those long lashes of his aren’t that obnoxious after all…

Two Roads is New Adult Romance about finding love, standing out, and learning to embrace who you are. It contains some language and mild sexual content.

4 / 5 Stars

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*I’d like to thank L.M for an EArc copy of Two Roads in exchange for an honest review*

Since Click To Subscribe, which can I say I ABSOLUTELY LOVED, was released, I have been highly anticipating L.M’s next book, Two Roads. I was lucky enough to dedicate a week on my blog to L.M which ended in a teaser from Two Roads. It was small enough to make me excited for this book.

When I saw Two Roads in my inbox, I quickly finished my book just so I could demolish his book and become engrossed in Logan and Cali’s hatred for one another, the fun and awesome pranks they play on each other and the pain they both feel for Cali’s deceased brother.

It is L.M’s first venture into the NA genre and one that he obviously should not worry about because he nailed it to a T.  I literally devoured the whole book in a day and constantly tweeted my love for it….and how I always seemed to be crying. Seriously, even at parts that weren’t even sad I was crying. But as I say, if a book makes me cry, then it’s a great one and Two Roads definitely should be on your TBR list. So just go on put it on their now, because you will regret not reading it otherwise.

You will giggle, smile, cry, swoon, shout at your kindle for the two of them to just get together and also draw your own conclusion on some of the things happening throughout the book – I know I certainly did. L.M’s writing really is fresh – he adds in humour, fun nerdy words and a romance mixed in with great pranks, emotional scenes and he makes you feel and become a part of the story. You care about Logan and Cali.

Cali hasn’t been herself for over four years, not since her brother’s death. Her parents aren’t supportive in her career choice and want her to work for them so she has a love/hate relationship with them. When she gets to college, she spots the one guy she has hated for years – her best friends brother Logan. That is where the pranks begin

My heart went out to Cali. Once an outgoing girl, she is now pretending to be someone she is not, someone who ‘sleeps around’ and acts like a complete bitch, but it’s a façade she’s hiding behind to stop the pain and grief and guilt she is constantly feeling about her brother’s death. The only thing that makes her happy is reading/writing poetry, and of course Logan; but only when she is pulling amazing pranks on him. That is when she also feels alive.

I really enjoyed her journey. Her journey with finding her true self, finding love, finding forgiveness, and most of all letting go of all the guilt she had locked inside. There was this one scene that cut me deep and all the floodgates opened. It’s where you see her accept everything in her life, see her forgive and embrace herself, her true self, with no hiding anymore. You feel proud of her for getting this far and for Logan being there throughout it all.

Now Logan. Geeky maths boy who wears geeky math tops and drinks cold hot chocolate. For a maths boy, he is kind of a ladies man, and I know I would be swooning after him – well I was throughout the book. He was Cali’s brother’s best friend and he, just as much as Cali, suffered with pain, grief and guilt over his death, but he too, learnt to keep it locked away and act like he is now fine. When Cali first gives him crap, he seems this as an opportunity to keep an eye on her so he retaliates and shows how much he ‘hates’ her too.

He’s a secret poetry lover and when he and Cali are put together on a blind date, that’s when they begin to talk, no pranks, just talk and he finds out that Cali loves poetry too. There is this convention that month and Cali is umming and ahhing about going, so he does whatever he can to make her go with him. Pulling pranks, texting her constantly until she goes with him.

That weekend is what changes everything for the both of them.

Logan is really sweet. He’s caring and lovely and so freaking funny with the pranks and the texts to Cali. No matter how much he ‘hated’ Cali, it was clear to see just how much he loved her and would do anything to make her happy – the pranks obviously did. But he wanted her to stop the anger, let go of the guilt she felt and be herself, and that’s why he wanted to keep her in eyesight and in his life, even If it meant doing to pranks on her.

Despite the ‘hate’, the romance was sweet and you really root for both of them to get together, so when Logan told Cali what he did, you just want to hug the crap out of him and be like “I KNEW IT LOGAN, I BLOODY KNEW YOU HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH IT.” Ohhh what an utter babe he was.

I really liked seeing both Cali and Logan happy in the end. Although it was inevitable how the ending would happen, it was a great journey to get to where they go to!

I loved the theme of poetry. I admit, I am never going to be one for poetry, but L.M actually made me interested in it, in the poems mentioned and used in Two Roads. Made me understand about poetry and the meanings that are and could be behind the words. So I’m still not a fan, but thank you L.M for highlighting the importance of poetry in Two Roads, I loved how it brought Logan and Cali together.

I also loved all the pranks that Cali and Logan devised up for each other, they were pure entertaining and funny and you could see just how much Cali needed to do this to Logan. And despite the one prank that went waaay too far and actually hurt them both in what Cali did, the rest of them were funny and childish and exactly what awesome pranks should be. Something tells me L.M is a master in pranks…. Remind me never to get on the wrong side of him 😉

So if you are looking for a book full of pranks, poetry, two people who hate each other but secretly love each other but can’t admit it due to the past then Two Roads is definitely a book worth reading. You should really invest your time reading it, because you won’t be disappointed at all!

Posted in Teaser Tuesday

Teaser Tuesday: Still Human (#2) – Kerry Heavens

Teaser Tuesdays is a weekly bookish meme, hosted by MizB of Should Be Reading. Anyone can play along! Just do the following:

• Grab your current read
• Open to a random page
• Share two (2) “teaser” sentences from somewhere on that page
• BE CAREFUL NOT TO INCLUDE SPOILERS! (make sure that what you share doesn’t give too much away! You don’t want to ruin the book for others!)
• Share the title & author, too, so that other TT participants can add the book to their TBR Lists if they like your teasers.

My teaser

Hanging on the back of the door is a garment bag with an envelope. Written on the envelope is my name in Danny’s writing.

66% Loc 2582, Beta Copy of Still Human – Kerry Heavens.

Posted in Romance, Suspense

The Rock Star Next Door – Lily Silver

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Sometimes love conquers time…

From the first moment he saw her, Lex recognizes Jessie. He knows they were lovers in a past life and their souls are destined for a reunion. Can he convince her they belong together?

Jessica Kelly has reached the pinnacle of success with her hot new rock band. She and her friends have rented a house in Malibu. Living next door is the notorious rock legend. When Lex takes a personal and passionate interest in Jessie, can she afford to lose her heart to The Rock Star Next Door?

Lex learns someone is stalking Jessie. She refuses to let him help her and hides the identity of her tormentor. Will their tragic past be repeated, separating them for another lifetime? Can Lex prevent Jessie from being taken from him again by a malicious and violent force reaching across time to destroy them?

My rating: 2.5/3 out of 5
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“Lex recognized her. He knew Jessica Kelly was his soul mate and their spirits were destined for a reunion.”

From the moment he saw her, Lex knew she was the one. The one he had been looking for. The one who got away. The lover of his past life. His soul mate. He had finally found her and she was living next door. He just had to try and convince her somehow that they were meant to be together.

Jessica Kelly had reached new heights with the success of their band Heartless. She and her band mates/friends rented a house in Malibu to finish up their third album and finding out that rock legend Lex is living next door and has taken an interest in Jessie? Well shes stunned. She’s followed and fancied him since forever but can she really take a chance on him and give him her heart?

When Jessie starts to be tormented by someone from her past, Lex will do whatever it takes to stop the stalker. But Jessie refuses his help and hides the true identity of the tormenter not wanting Lex to know the secrets of her past.

 But down the line, it seems that history is coming closer to repeating itself and Lex can’t lose Jessie again, he can’t be separated for another lifetime. Can Lex prevent history repeating itself when they are both confronted by a malicious and violent force willing to destroy them again?

I have to start by saying, The Rock star Next Door started off a little slow and then the main characters, Jessie and Lex, started to annoy the heck out of me until the end, where I finally applauded them for getting this shizz together. Took them long enough after all the drama that occurred throughout the book. Seriously, every page something was happening. As much as I wanted to put the book down, I wanted to find out if they really were past life lovers and what happened to them both.

It really is a book about mental illness and how it affects those around that person. It’s about finding your soul mate after years of searching. It’s also about the struggles to overcome being manipulated for so long and the journey to finally freeing yourself.

Jack and Jessie have had a bad childhood. Their mother, a sufferer of mental illness, would emotionally and sometimes physically abuse them and their father was hardly ever there, working as a truck driver five out of seven days a week. It came to a point where they just couldn’t cope anymore so when they were sixteen where they ran away from home and never looked back.

During the years they ran away, they did and tried everything to make some money and eventually their hard work paid off, as they were signed to a record label. Now their band Heartless are getting bigger day by day, they are happy with where their success is taking them, but there’s still a big matter in their life…their mother, who still haunts them even when she is 2000 miles away.

I could see why Jessie was so scared and petrified of life, why she was so uptight to make sure the band did everything correct, that her motherly instinct kicked in with the band and her brother because they had worked hard for the success they had and she was frightened it would be taken away. Also deep down she was also still harbouring her childhood fears of her mother’s manipulation, and although she didn’t want it remember that period of her life, it still affected not just her, but her brother, Jack, too. She panicked over her relationship with Lex, how fast they were moving, how much, in a way, he reminds her of mother, even though she knew he didn’t mean to come across that way.

You see throughout the book just how much her mother has destroyed her, made me fear. There were times when I wanted to shake her and tell her to listen to her brother, that he was right in what he was saying, but she just discarded it and went with what she wanted to do, which in turn, was making her stressed and ill and even more scared.

Jack was also scared from his childhood, and although he took drugs when it got him upset/angry/stressed, he seemed to know exactly what to do to deal with his mother’s phone calls and manipulation, even when they hadn’t spoken/seen her for eight years, she still affected them.

From the moment he saw Jessie, Lex knew she was the one who was cruelly taken from him in their past life. He believed in reincarnation and knew Jessie was his one many years ago. Now he had found her, he couldn’t let her go, but because of this, and his persistence in wanting to marry her asap, he was slowly pushing her away, scaring her due to everything in her life and past. I did feel for Lex, because he loved her but yes, he was too full on with everything surrounding Jessie so when he had pushed her too far, I didn’t scowled her, because I knew she couldn’t handle it anymore.

I knew he just wanted her forever now he had found her, but even when they weren’t together and he was giving her space, he was still there for her, even when he didn’t truly know what was causing her to freak out all the time. I really did love his love for her and his caring side. I just wished Jessie would see it too, but then I suppose she had other things on her mind, such as her brother and her mother.

Now, their past life stuff. Lex knew the moment he laid eyes on Jessie that they were past life lovers and that he had finally find the one he had been searching for, for over 900 years. I think that is why he was so happy to have found her that he wanted to marry her right there and then. That it took two dates for him to confess that she would be the women he would marry to the paps. I could kind of understand the need to the rush, he had found his past love in this lifetime and he didn’t want to waste any time without her. But the thing was, Jessie didn’t know or remember anything about a past life.

But at 57% things seemed to look up and become interesting. Jessie had this dream where she was a maid and Lex was a singer and they were to run away and get married in Paris. Was this her past life as Lex mentioned?

I think this was what kept me going…I wanted to know more about this past life and what happened to her, as Lex mentioned, something bad did. Throughout the second half, we were shown snippets of Jessie’s dreams, about the past life and what went on 900 years ago and how it all connected to her present life.

I did gasp at the part near the end where Lex was stunned and frightened as one scene was happening word for word and he knew what was going to happen next – hence history repeating. For thank the lord it did not repeat and everything ended up okay…as okay as it could be.

I did like the reincarnation concept of the book. Lovers in a past life who didn’t have a chance to be together, finding each other in their ‘new’ life and now having the chance to live the life they didn’t get to have. It was a nice touch. But I didn’t like all the drama that surrounded this book. There was too much and I don’t know how I managed to get through it because it wasn’t holding my attention. I was more interested in knowing more about the dreams and their past life.

Would I recommend this book? I’m not sure. Perhaps for the ‘reincarnation’ aspect, but not the drama.

Would I read it again? No, probably not.

Posted in Jessica Sorensen, New Adult, Romance, Suspense

The Coincidence of Callie and Kayden (The Coincidence #1) – Jessica Sorensen

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There are those who don’t get luck handed to them on a shiny platter, who end up in the wrong place at the wrong time, who don’t get saved.

Luck was not on Callie’s side the day of her twelfth birthday when everything was stolen from her. After it’s all over, she locks up her feelings and vows never to tell anyone what happened. Six years later her painful past consumes her life and most days it’s a struggle just to breathe.

For as long as Kayden can remember, suffering in silence was the only way to survive life. As long as he did what he was told, everything was okay. One night, after making a terrible mistake, it seems like his life might be over. Luck was on his side, though, when Callie coincidentally is in the right place at the right time and saves him.

Now he can’t stop thinking about the girl he saw at school, but never really knew. When he ends up at the same college as Callie, he does everything he can to try to get to know her. But Callie is reserved and closed off. The more he tries to be part of her life, the more he realizes Callie might need to be saved.

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My Review

At age twelve, everything in Callie’s life changed. It changed her so much that she hacked off her hair, turned into a recluse and locked up everything that happened to her up. Never telling anyone about it. Six years later, it still consumes her every thought and she cannot wait to leave the small town to start college. It may not be a fresh start, but it sure as hell gets her away.

Kayden has suffered in silence from a young age. He vowed it was the only way to get through the pain when it happened. One night after making a mistake, it seems that his life may just be on the edge until he’s saved. Callie is coincidently at the right place, at the right time and saves him.

Four months after and Kayden can’t stop thinking about the girl who saved his life. But luck is on his side again when Callie is at the same college that he is and he will do whatever it takes to get to know her and owe her for that night. But Callie is closed off and doesn’t want to be owed. “I just did what anyone would have done.” But he knows that’s not true, people would have walked away. The more he tries to get to know her, the more is feels its Callie that needs to be saved.

Jessica Sorensen has done it again. First with The Secret of Ella and Micha and now with The Coincidence of Callie and Kayden. She makes me fall in love and feel all kinds of emotions throughout the books and I just can’t get enough. I always ask myself why I take so long to read such amazing book and I literally can’t answer. Well, I can and it’s because sometimes I’m scared. Scared to read it and then have it break my heart. Yes, I know it’s just a book, but no, it’s much more than that to me. I get hooked, captivated and I can’t get it out of my head until I finish it. And even after, I still think about it.

That’s exactly what happened with The Coincidence of Callie and Kayden. I was scared to read it, but I took a chance and I am so freaking glad I did! Despite the ending (WTFFFF), I couldn’t put the book down. Ms. Sorensen keeps me wanting more, keeps me turning every page until I am right at the end and begging for more. Begging for The Redemption of Callie and Kayden to be out now and in my hands where I can read it and find out what happens next. But alas, I have to wait until August. Counting down the day? YES I bloody well am.

Callie has been ‘broken’ since her twelve birthday when something horrific happened to her at the hands of her brother’s best friend. Before that incident she was happy and after, she died a little. She cut her long hair short, started wearing baggy clothes to try and make herself ugly and became a loner. She didn’t want attention on her and she certainly didn’t want any boys around her. She didn’t trust them.

Kayden has been dealing with pain since a young age. He has scars both inside and outside his body and going away to college is his chance to try and forget about his past, about his home. It’s his chance to try and start again, away from all the pain. He still owes his life to the girl who saved him all those months ago and when he finds out that shes at his college and is the girl he accidentally fell on top of, well, he’s going to stop at nothing to get to know her and thank for. Thank her for stopping it.

Callie and Kayden have actually known each other since they were kids but not really enough to call one another a friend, despite the fact that Callie’s dad was Kayden’s football coach for years. But one night, Callie was just coincidentally at the right place at the right time and saved Kayden’s life. Something he will never forget.

Four months later, Kayden arrives at college with his best friend Luke in tow. Callie has already been at college for four months, deciding to get away from home early and she’s found solace in Seth – her new best friend who also has secrets of his own. She’s still afraid of everyone, apart from Seth, so when Kayden wants to spend time with her, Seth calls her out and makes her pick things off the list to do. It results in her hanging out more with Kayden, Luke and of course, Seth and they build a close friendship unit, something Callie would never have thought she would be involved in.

She takes baby steps each day, with the help of the list, but shes beginning to trust Kayden, just not enough to tell him her secret, just yet.

Kayden has dealt with pain all his life and he knows Callie is hurting. From what? That he doesn’t know, but he wants to help her. He has learnt to cancel out feelings and emotions but around Callie, she makes him feel, which scares the hell out of him. He doesn’t want to be feeling but he can’t stay away from Callie. He’s protective of her, he dreams about her and as much as he wants to stay away, he just can’t.

The more time they spend together, the more you can see that Callie is slowly trusting him and Kayden begins to feel worthy of being with Callie. Together they are learning to heal from their pasts with the help and love of one another. It’s a tough journey as they have been hurt pretty badly, but just being together is building them back up.

It truly is a beautiful story. It’s powerful and breathtaking and I felt so many emotions whilst reading. The journey that Callie takes is one that I respect. I was proud of her for taking each day at a time and owning that list that she and Seth made. She powered through them like a trooper and I loved seeing her become happy – at least for a while when she wasn’t thinking about the past – and just living for the moment.

I loved how at the top of each chapter it had something from ‘The List’ that Callie had to do. It was a great way for her to try and regain something back in her life and it was a great way to help her along with her journey into at least trying to get over what happened when she was twelve.

Seth was a fantastic best friend to Callie. He was there for her completely. It was mad to think that they had only known each other a few months, but in that short time they had both confessed their deepest darkest secret to each other and that, in itself, made them close and made them determined to help each other through everything. It was a perfect friendship and I loved how Seth pushed Callie to her limit with the list, knowing she could do it and to not be scared to do things on the list as eventually it was breaking her barriers down and she was ‘getting’ better because of the list. It was an awesome idea.

One of my favourite scenes is actually linked to the book cover. When Callie runs into the rain and just spins around. It was like she just forgot everything for that moment and focused on the rain and how free she felt. When Kayden joined her, it was like there was no one else. At that moment it was just her and Kayden, no one else in the world. It was perfect. They are perfect and my heart was racing in the scene for those two where they had such a raw passion for one another.

Oh god, that cliff-hanger! After I clicked the next page hoping it would be okay, I realized it was the end. I cried. Yes tears ran down my face because Jessica Sorensen, that was evil! LOL. I seriously need The Redemption of Callie and Kayden now! I don’t want to wait until August because I’m not sure my heart can take it. I neeeed to know what happens next.

Sigh, I’ll just have to be patient and count down the days till it’s out.

The Coincidence of Callie and Kayden is a book not to be missed out. It’s about coincidences, trust, love, abuse, friendship and of course, being saved. It touches upon emotional, physical and sexual abuse, which is not taken lightly at all and both Callie and Kayden are whittled down to the core but surviving somehow. Ms Sorensen writes about the topic beautifully, and despite everything that happen to them, they are still getting along, day by day, trying not to let it affect them too much. They are broken by it, but together, they find a way to forget for a while and just be as two people.

I can’t say how much I enjoyed this book enough. I’m just still thinking about the ending and how I have months until the second book to see how it all ends.

If you’re like me and HATE starting series that have major cliff-hangers (I didn’t know this one did) then I would say wait until august to read this book but if not, then bloody well get your copy and read it now! You won’t be disappointed and you will fall in love with Callie, Kayden, Seth and Luke. Guaranteed.

Posted in Erotica, Romance

Inside Out – Lauren Dane (Book #3)

Synopsis

Ella Tipton is a survivor. In the wake of an attack that nearly left her dead, she has spent each day putting her life back together. Once vibrant and outgoing, she’s needed to reclaim the best parts of who she was while retaining the hard-won lessons. There hasn’t been room for any romantic entanglements, even if she were ready. Still, it doesn’t mean she has to stop sneaking looks at Mister Tall, Dark and Tattooed himself.

Security professional Andrew Copeland isn’t quite sure when his jones for the lovely and decidely skittish Ella developed. He’s known her for years, has watched her triumph over the pain she’s been dealt. Cope is no stranger to women, but he knows the nervous flush he gets every time he talks to Ella is different from any attraction he’s had in the past. Determined to get Ella to let him in, Cope does the one thing he can think of to get close: he offers her hands-on training in self-defense.

While Ella’s sure Cope is just being nice, the prospect of being able to touch him and and gain the tools to push away the last vestiges of her fear is more than she can resist. Soon enough, Cope shows Ella his feelings are far more than friendly, and he reignites something deep inside her. It isn’t long before desire and love turn them both inside out.

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My Review

Inside Out is one of those books that completely shocked me to the core. As you can see, recently I have been reading a lot of erotica, where they have a little story adapted into the sex scenes. So when I read the synopsis to this book that is exactly what I thought it would be about.

The synopsis is pretty heavy going and I thought Lauren Dane would just quickly bypass the problems involved, getting straight to the sex. By God, I was so wrong, and I’m so glad!

The story has so much depth in it, with Ella being a survivor of a violent attack from her ex-boyfriend who wanted her dead. It’s taken her years to try and get her life back on track, and thanks to her friends and family, she is getting there. You follow the struggles that Ella faces every day, from needing control in her life to get her through the day, to being so wary of everything around her, from looking in the backseat of her car every time she gets in to placing a chair in her direct view in her apartment so she can see if anyone has broken in.

No one ever sees her legs either, which are tarnished with scars from the attack. She wears trousers every day and if she wears a dress, it needs to hide the scars. She doesn’t see how beautiful she is though, especially to Andrew Copeland, who has watched and crushed on her from afar for years, but he knew she had to spend time gaining back courage and time to get over the attack without him swooping in, much as he had to grow up and stop sleeping around with women.

Andrew, or Cope to his friends, flirts with everyone. But that’s just how he is, he’s a friendly guy. He’s wanted to be with Ella for years now, but after the attack, he knew she had to sort her life out, and so he was there for her, as a friend. But recently he’s changed and now he knows Ella has to, so it’s his chance to get to know her more and be with her.

Throughout the book you see her strength shine through with everything she does and achieves. And Cope is so proud to be with her, helping her through her fears but giving her one-to-one self-defence training so she can feel in control of her life again. Watching her fall for Cope was so cute to read. Although she has liked him for years, she had never thought he would want her, but yet he does.

Cope, to his friends, is the playboy, the one who has one night stands but to Ella, he shows his real side. He’s kind, shy, loves poetry, is artistic and loves Ella so much. He’s scared to show his true side to his friends in fear of being rejected but you can see how close this group is and Ella tells him they wouldn’t reject him – they are family.

They both have protective streaks in them, for each other and their friends, but they also bring out the best in one another. There are a few sex scenes in here, but they don’t go too graphic. They were a nice touch to their relationship, and to see Cope not care about the scarring on her legs, it made my heart skip because she was so afraid of anyone seeing her legs, but Cope loved her for her and wouldn’t have been turned off by them, which is what Ella was afraid of.

This book is part of the Brown Sibling series. It’s the 3rd book, and it’s also the first I have read. You could read it as a standalone, but, as I was for a part of the book, I was confused over the characters especially Erin, Ben and Todd’s relationship, so I’m going to download the others in the series and catch-up over what their stories involve. I’m so glad these stories have such depth in them, with some sex scenes wrapped into them. Stories like these really pull me in and I begin to feel attached to the characters. I felt connected to them all, feeling everything they were, and that doesn’t really happen too much to me. Sure I feel something for the characters in books, but they all pulled me into their own stories encased in the book.

The only thing that was a tad confusing was that all the girls had names beginning with E. Ella, Erin and Elise. But other than that, this book really did touch me and I will definitely download the first two and the books after this one to see how their lives evolve.