Posted in Family, Music, Terri Anne Browning

The Rocker That Needs Me (#3) – Terri-Anne Browning

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The Demon…

I’ve been fighting my own demons for most of my life. The alcohol seems to numb the pain, but it never makes the nightmares go away. All I want in life is a little peace. When I met my angel it felt like I found it, but there is so much standing between us. Why does she have to be so young…?

The Demon’s Angel…

Meeting Drake was the best thing to ever happen to me. I found my friend, my soul mate. But he lets my age stand between us. There is something that haunts him, and I selfishly want to be the one that helps him conquer his ghosts. If he would just let me in, let me closer, I think I could help him…

4.5 / 5 stars

My review of The Rocker That Holds Me HERE
My review of The Rocker That Savors Me HERE

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My Review

Since I had found the first book in The Rocker series by Terri Anne Browning, you could say I have fallen in love. In love with her and with the band. Since The Rocker That Holds Me, I have become obsessed with the stories. Of wanting to know the past of each character, to wanting ALL the books out now so I can gobble up each of the guys and the girls and watch their happy endings after all the shit they have been through.

If you have read my review of book two – The Rocker That Savors Me, you will see that I have such a massive soft spot for Drake. Okay, not a soft spot, I am basically in love with this guy. There is just something about him that drew me in. His dark past, his vulnerability, and the fact I want to mollycoddle him and be the one to help him through his past, through his drinking and just be the one for him. I know, I know, hes fictional, but I don’t care. In my head, he can be as real as I want him to be! Hahah.

You could say that my excitement for this book is an understatement. I was PISSING myself over getting my hands on this book so when Terri-Anne emailed me about an ARC, well who the hell was I to pass up reading The Rocker That Needs Me and my book boyfriend? OF COURSE I wanted an arc. I needed to learn all about Drake and his past and his relationship with Lana.

Myself and Holly (@Hollyshotreads) are completely besotted by this series and by Drake that we waited until each other had finished our respected books and read it together. We have been sooo anxious for the past few weeks and were completely excited to finally read Drake’s story. The texts she was sending me were making me chuckle!!

My darling Drake. My darling, darling drake. His prologue killed me. It killed me. And I cried. Yes, I cried at the start of this book. I knew it was going to be a bumpy and emotional ride, I knew it would be a hard and long journey and I knew we would find out about his awful past and the reason why he drink excessively until he blacks out. I was hoping that this wasn’t going to be his past, but I just cried so much when it turned out just what his past was.

It was heartbreaking and it really made you understand part of the reason he drank. I completely understood though, it just broke my heart that he needed the alcohol to numb him, to make the pain and the past go away. To stop him feeling guilty too.

But then he spots his angel when moving Layla and her sisters back to their guest house. But his angel is 17 years old and hes 31. He feels like hes found his soul mate but shes too young. He wants to stay away but he can’t. It’s like he needs Lana to breathe. To fill his life with some kind of hope, hope that he can get over his demons in time and hope that he can turn his life around and stop the drinking once and for all.

You really do see Drake change over the course of the book. Because of the dual POV, we got inside Drake’s head, which I absolutely loved. You got to see his fears, his insecurities, how he thought of himself and his band brothers and Emmie, and especially how he thought of Lana – his angel.

Of course there are parts where you just want to smack Drake but I loved how he needed and wanted to get help. Help for his drinking and for his past, no matter how hard it was for him to dredge it all back up. I felt like a proud momma for Drake sorting his shit out. He did it for Lana, for Shane, for himself.

Drake really does come a long way. He is a strong character, despite the addiction to alcohol. He is vulnerable too and completely besotted with Lana, which I found so heart clenchingly adorable.  You could really see the fear of losing her when something big happens, and that is what kicks him ass into gear to try and win her back, to be a better man for her. He never wants to be without her, ever.

Angel, or Lana, as her real name goes is so mature and grown up for her 17 years. So doesn’t get involved in petty situations in school, she works hard, and focuses on her future and getting through school. She and Drake instantly click. Despite the age gap, there is something there between them that although they try to ignore, it’s blatantly there. They spend all their time together and it’s obvious that feelings are changing between them both for each other even though they are petrified and would rather hide them.

I loved the fear Drake had in losing her (which you will read in The Rocker That Savors Me). It was pure and you see just how much he and Lana balance each other out. But when one situation changes everything, Lana needs to do what is best for her. She is such a strong, caring girl and you really do feel for her. She loves Drake so much, but this something, she just needs to get away. To try and forget what happened. To focus on herself now even though she cares so much for Drake, it’s down to him to make the change.

Being miles away from Drake, I think it made Lana grow up and grow into herself. She just needed that time away to be herself – to focus on school but also focus on what she wants. I was so proud of her for standing up for herself, for not taking crap off Emmie, whom, despite my love for her, seemed to have some sort of vendetta against her. (I’m hoping this works itself out) but as I’ve said, Lana is amazing, shes brilliant and she didn’t deserve the hate towards her because it wasn’t her fault at all. (You’ll see what I mean). But I am glad she got her happy ending and both her and Drake, well I love them together and I’m glad they got over the issues standing in the way.

Drake does get his happily ever after. My heart was clenching in sweetness and an overpowering feeling to cwtched the shit out of him and Lana. My darling Drake finally got there in the end. Got to a point in his life where he was completely and utterly happy, in love so deeply with the one girl who stole his heart from the first sight. His journey wasn’t an easy one in any means. Lots of hurdles and bumps along the way, but they made him stronger. He broke his own barrier down, he stopped drinking, he put his guilt behind him, knowing and learning it wasn’t his fault and he got the girl who he knew he wanted to change for and be a better man for. You really cannot get any better than Drake. No way.

If you have yet to read about my book boyfriends in The Rocker series by the fabulous Terri Anne, then you are completely missing out. Seriously, you are because from the first book I knew this would become a favourite series of mine and it has. You have a band of ‘brothers’ all who have different secrets from their childhood and have grown up together and they have Emmie, the glue to their family. The girl who they all protected when they were younger and still are in a way. You watch the separate band members find their own way in life now; finding the one girl they want to spend their life with, and watching them grow.

The Rocker series isn’t one I’ve read before. The Rocker aren’t party animals, they aren’t the drink and drugs types. They are tame and it’s now time for them all to find the love of their life.

So join me in loving this series so hard and find new book boyfriends in each one of them.

Posted in Jade C. Jamison, New Adult

ARC: Bullet – Jade C. Jamison

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An Epic Rock Star Novel

What if you discover the man you want is toxic?

She tasted a little bit of heaven with him, and now they’ve gone through hell and back, but can their relationship take anymore?

Valerie Quinn is a naïve college freshman when she meets on-the-rise rock star Ethan Richards. He’s an idealistic, handsome, reckless young man, but he’s captured her heart. She doesn’t give up on him and eventually his walls crumble down. By the time Valerie has given herself to him completely, she discovers he’s damaged and may be beyond help. Can she save Ethan and their relationship before he implodes, or will he self-destruct and take her with him?

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My Review

Valerie Quinn is a college freshman. Shes had little experience with guys so when she meets on-the-rise rock star and fellow student Ethan Richards, he’s instantly captured her heart.

But there is something about Ethan. Something damaged him from his childhood that he’s held onto all these years and Valerie tries to help him, eventually breaking down his walls. But when Valerie gives herself completely to him, that’s when she discovers he may be beyond help.

She’s determined to try and help Ethan and rebuild their relationship but Ethan is toxic and is leading towards a road of self-destruct. Down a road where it may be hard for Valerie to save him and save herself in the long haul.

Bullet begins in the present. I’m not going to tell you who Valerie is with, but it sets you up with the beginning of Val’s story and how she got to this point in the first place. The chapters are divided into past and present –more past than present but no less important as the present makes you think back over the past ‘past’ chapters to really see how she became to person she is now, in the present.

We meet Valerie in the ‘present’ as I’ve mentioned and shes got some huge news to share. She seems grown-up, mature and in love. When Jade introduces us to Valerie in the ‘past’, shes a virgin, she’s naive to all things sexual, but that’s only because of her up-bringing but she’s far from shy. She finds it easy to make friends.

The first real friend we see her make is Ethan. He’s in one of her classes and she decides that next class shes going to talk to him. I loved how they both had a passion for metal music, thus starting the beginning of their friendship. Although she only really hung out during class and their walk back to their dorms, they became friends fast and I found it refreshing that Val had someone with a common interest, unlike her bitchy roommate Charlotte, who I instantly took a dislike to.

Throughout her journey in the first year of college, she becomes closer to Ethan and his roommate/band member Zane and also becomes friends with the other two members of his band, who live back at home, Brad and Nick. They all welcomed her to their ’group’ with open arms. They cared about her.

The more time they all spent together, the more Val knew she wanted to be in their group and not return to college. She didn’t know what she wanted to major in, so she really thought there would be no point staying. Their group dynamic changed and I loved that having a girl in the band who also wrote the lyrics to their songs made them become even more popular than they were. It worked because she put so much effort and passion into making them work.

I thoroughly enjoyed the journey we had with Val and the band members. You see Valerie as an inexperienced, naive young woman who is hung up on her best friend – Ethan, bypassing any other guy who looks her way. Although she kind of knows they look at her, all she wants is Ethan. Over the course of the book, she grows up a lot, she grows into her sexuality, knowing how to flaunt it and use it and she seems to enjoy the fact that she’s matured and can hold her own around guys and on stage too, with engaging the audience. I loved reading her grow, albeit going back to Ethan all the time annoyed the heck out of me, but in between with the romances with Clay/Jet who was in another band that they toured with let her experience even more with her sexuality.

Clay/Jet was a few years older than Val and the boys. What I loved about him was that he had two different personas. Clay was the sweet, caring guy, who would cuddle you and Jet was his persona on stage and in bed. He’d make sure you had a great time in bed. After everything he and Val went through, I think the outcome for both of them was the right path to choose. Even if she did go back to Ethan once again.

I really liked Ethan at the start when we first meet him. He seems like a cool kid, someone who really cares for Val but won’t admit it, in turn staying true to his womanizing ways, which seems to hurt Val. He seemed jealous when guys gave her attention but he never did anything to prove his feelings to her. It was like he didn’t know how to, or he didn’t want to destroy her ‘purity’. She was his muse and he didn’t want to change that.

Throughout the years they spend together, either together or just as a band, I despised him bit by bit over his hurtful and painful actions towards Val. He didn’t know a good thing if it hit him in the face and it was like he was bi-polar. I had no idea what he was going to do. Drugs and alcohol seemed to be his void over his past but he just always took it too far, causing pain not only to Val but to Brad as well. All the things he did to Val over the course of the book, well I just wanted to punch him. Val loved him with everything and he put her through so much that she just didn’t know if she could handle that pain again.

There were parts when I thought he would change, but he never did. He’d change for a while then retreat back to his asshole state. I thought Valerie was so stupid for taking him back all the time, it got me so frustrated that I was shouting at her through my Kindle. I wanted her to say ‘Fuck you’ and stand up for herself when he acted like a douchebag. Although there are times she did say ‘fuck you’ to him, I suppose she kept going back because she thought he truly would change and she was so deeply in love with him that she just brushed over everything he did when he showed her some affection. He really was toxic.

Now Brad. I LOVE HIM!! I’d love to have him for myself please. He was such a sweetheart. The first time we meet him it’s obvious he and Val share this connection. She knows it and so does he but she’s hung up on Ethan and she tries to forget about it. He tells her that he knows she likes Ethan so nothing will happen while that card is on the table. I loved him for that because he was respecting her.

He was a worrier and really cared about the band when no one else seemed to give a rats arse about it. He was literally their band manager, tour manager; driver and he wrote music/lyrics, had a job so they could afford to live and drove to their concerts. I loved his dedication for the band, wanting to make them noticed so they could get signed. Music was his life and all he wanted to do and I really admired him that he was so passionate about following his dreams.

He and Val had a close friendship, even though there was some sort of sexual chemistry between them but he swore that he wouldn’t go there (again). He worried about her relationship with Ethan because of the toxicity that is Ethan, who was damaging her poor heart over his actions. Brad was the guy that Val should be with not Ethan!

Ohhh the ending! It was just perfect and Valerie really did end up with the right guy. I was rooting for them throughout the book and I was so glad it was the person who I REALLY wanted her to be with. They were just so right for each other and albeit, their journey was a long one, but it just proves that in the end, those who are meant to be together, will find their way to one another and this was the perfect way to end such an amazing book as Bullet.

Jade has done it once again and drawn me into the story of Valerie, much like she has with her other books and she makes it so hard to put her books down and actually get some sleep! It is longer than her other books, but it’s no less important or drawn out for the sake of it, no! it’s captivating and you really become engrossed in the plot and with the characters.

I’d like to thank Jade for sending me an ARC copy of Bullet. She’s such a brilliant person and author, so if you haven’t read any of her books – boo at you! Please download them or read my reviews under Jade C. Jamison in the category box, because her books will leave you wanting more.

NOW, if you’re looking for smoking hot Rockstars, smoking hot sex, love triangles and a metal rock band then Bullet will be and is the book for you. It’s about growing up, finding love, dealing with damaged souls, succeeding and finding true happiness. PLEASE buy this e-book when it comes out because you will be obsessed with the characters and story right from the beginning.