I had big dreams of how I wanted my life. Becoming a rock star was all I wanted. It would solve so many of my problems. With the money that I would make I was going to take care of my mom, get her out of the hell hole we had been living in all my life. Having your dreams come true isn’t something that many people get to accomplish in life. I did, and I loved it.
For about a minute…
It’s funny how when you think you have everything you could possible every want, your dreams change. Mine did without my even realizing it. Then I opened my eyes and saw that everything I ever wanted was standing in front of me.
From the first day I set eyes on Emmie she became a part of me. The guys and I spent years watching over her, caring for her… Loving her. Then without my realizing it my love for her changed. I found myself aching for her, wanting her in a way that a guy like me had no right to want her. My love and need for Emmie became an all-consuming ache that I was helpless to fight against.
Would she ever open those big green eyes and see me as anything but a friend?
5 out of 5 stars
Have I mentioned how much I love this series? I’m pretty sure you are fed up with me expressing my love for this series but I don’t care because you ALL need to get these books on your kindle, read about the brilliant band that is Demon’s Wings, about their childhoods, their struggles, their present, their love for Emmie and of course, finding the love of their lives.
The Rocker That Holds Her is all 4 books, plus extra from Nik’s POV. For those of you who have read the series, Nik has known Emmie since she was 5 and he was 15. WE saw him and his band brothers take care of her when her mother beat her and they have always been there for her, even when they got their big break and were off touring America. When Emmie’s mum dies, they fight to get her to live with them and that is when feelings begin to churn for Nik. They haven’t seen Emmie in around 18 months and now she is in her late teens she has grown up to become a beautiful woman and Nik cant get his head around liking her…he feels dirty and perverted but he cant help being in love with her.
He kept his feelings inside, drank to numb the pain of wanting her but not being able to have her and we see all this from his view point, as well as when he actually gets her for himself…FINALLY 🙂
We see the first time he met Emmie was she was just a little kid. We see him protect her, patch her up and make sure that nothing hurts her and if it is, he is always there for her. Nik’s childhood wasn’t great and after his parents died his aunt came and took him in. He loves his aunt like she is his mother and when he became famous, he still looked after her from afar. Nik is a gentle guy, but he is also protective, has a jealous streak but he loves with everything!
We see Nik torment himself over his feelings with Emmie. While he watches his band brothers with her, especially Jesse, he feels jealous that he;s not the one holding her hand, or cuddling her and falling asleep with her. But despite the jealousy, he tries to deny his attraction to her, deeming it wrong in his eyes for loving someone 10 years younger than him. He tried to sleep with girls to take away the pain but when that didn’t happen, he had to give in and try to keep his feelings in, and act normal around Emmie, as normal as he could when all he wanted was to kiss her.
We finally see him give in to his feelings at a pivotal point (which we see in The Rocker That Holds Me) after hurting over thinking Jesse was the babies father and the jealousy he feels over Axton Cage- another rockstar they are close with – as he and Emmie are best friends. I think this tipped him over the edge and made him see if he didn’t tell her his feelings he would lose her to another and that would kill him badly.
I love how Terri-Anne can just sink into writing in a guys POV. All the books and the band members speak their own and you can clearly distinguish who is talking – and with the girls too. I love how Terri-Anne writes and I am slightly obsessed with these books. I am so glad we got to dip into Nik’s head…he really has a lot of things to show and to say and we really see that he loves Emmie with everything, that he has wasted enough time not telling her and being with her that now he has her, he will do whatever he can to make her happy for the rest of their lives.
Of course, relationships are never easy, and Emmie and Nik go through some turbulence but they always work it out and it makes them stronger as a couple after it. You see their connection, their chemistry and if anybody came between them, we know Emmie would cut a bitch. Watch out Gabi 😉
You really do need to take a chance on this series, because they are written to pure brilliance. Terri-Anne develops the characters and you fall in love with them. She writes steamy sex scenes which connects the characters even more. We see the childhoods, the sorrow they have been through but then we see them all fall in love, know that the girls are the ones for them and we see them grow, and blossom together and alone. You will fall in love with Terri-Anne, the series and the characters – they will stay with you.
I can’t wait to read The Rocker’s Babies and Axton’s book The Rocker That Wants Me.
About Terri Anne
Hated school and reading until her aunt handed over her first romance novel at the age of twelve, as crazy aunts tend to do. It gave her a passion for the written word that has only increased over the years. At sixteen she started writing her own novellas, forcing her sister to be her one woman fan club. Now she has a few more fans and a lot more passion for writing. Reese: A Safe Haven Novella was her first Indie published book. The Rocker That Holds Me changed the tables and kicked off The Rocker… series featuring the sinfully delicious members of Demon’s Wings. Terri Anne lives just outside of Birmingham, AL with her husband and three children.
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